I haven't blogged for awhile. After the holidays, I felt so relieved and had a few ok days. Almost felt like I was moving along and the loss was not so in my face. I have been having coffee dates with widows, women some like me, some very different-all of us linked by the common theme of loss.
And then yesterday, I was struck by the fact that this was my last month before the year. The last month of memories from the year before. I can look back on the calendar and be prompted by the year before. It is like my last month of him-before I lose him forever and I am sad.