Was I always this pushy? It seems that I put 120% into some of the activities that I engage in these days. And I am not content to just sit and wait for things to happen. Why?
When did this start? While I agree that it is important to be focused and proactive, I think that I go overboard in my pursuits. It colors everything and then I tire and sit back and wait. Drive myself crazy with the "wanting" and "waiting". And I am so tired to trying to hard to capture some sort of warranty for happiness. Am a bit distressed that I have to put in so much effort to assuage my loneliness.