Is it the time of the year that makes me so contemplative? I am glad that I have survived some of the pain of the loss but it is hard to keep my head up these days. I am overwhelmed lately-an emotion that is not unfamiliar to me. Too much to do, too little energy-sometime too little control over things. My schedule is relentless, and the fact that I cannot always function - having one hand partially out of commission, is both irritating and a bit frightening. How can I manage? How will I move forward? What do I need to do to move past these hurdles that seem impossible?
I try not to think about such things but my days are full of worries. Money, time, disability-and me-only me to deal with it.