Four years ago today-I woke up and went to the gym with my husband. By mid morning my life had dramatically changed. Although it may seem this way-today is not only about the death of my husband - it is also about my journey since.
Today I am acknowledging me as well-that I am still standing, and that my life is okay.
It has been a long time between entries. Many challenges still confront me and I continue to heal from my dog bite injury in November. I had a second surgery and much pain and disability. I still struggle with the recovery process-doctor's appointments, catching up on work that was already overdue when I was injured. Dismal when I dwell on it and I try not to dwell. For awhile I was counting the things that were going wrong in my life and decided that I needed to let those things pass me by and try and capture the good things. There are good things!
My grandson will be 17 months old and is an awesome little boy
My family and friends are a great source of help and comfort-so lucky to have wonderful people in my life
I have a special man who has helped to nurse me back to health
All in all- I have emerged from the nightmare intact. Yes, if I had the chance I would go back to my life the way it was four years ago-but there is no time machine to do this.
So today I will think about my husband on this four year mark. My children will be with me and we will visit the grave and tell stories about time past. I imagine that we will laugh and cry. He was my love for 34 years and we grew up together and raised two fantastic people. I miss him so much.