Ugggh. I have been feeling down lately and licking my wounds. Brings to my mind such a visual of a wounded dog licking a huge gaping bleeding wound. I am dramatic these days.
Recently I was told that I was undisciplined. That comment made me sit up and take note and I realized that it was true. Did Bruce help me structure? For sure, and since he died my attempts at organizing my life have failed miserably. He grounded me, he goaded me into being productive. He was a motivating force for all who knew him. With his co-authors, he was without mercy on deadlines and with his family, one of his favorite sayings was "just do it".
So I need to get some structure-even though I want to crawl under the bed and pretend that everything will get done without effort. I would rather just lay and lick those wounds but nothing will heal that way.