Today I had another loss. The man I had been seeing for the 14 months called it quits. It came as a surprise to me - and of course is accompanied by lots of sadness. So I mourn for the relationship I had with him as well as the life that I had previously.
I feel hopeless-I guess a common response to this latest event. I wonder how I can continue to put one foot in front of another. I have been lonely-even though I had this relationship. It was a 2 day a week thing-and at times frustrating. But it was something-someone who was at the other end of the phone-someone who I felt loved me. Not only do I feel betrayed by him-but I also feel a bit betrayed by myself-that I continued in a relationship that seemed to offer me so little.