How helpful is it to look back? For the past 2 nights, I have been rehashing the past 4 months. What happened, what changed, why didn't I pay attention to the signs? Were there signs? How can I exercise more control over what happens to me? How can I continue to be proactive after a series of unfortunate events?
I try to be out there-brave in forging a new path for myself. Now I am dealing with so many new uncertains. I have done this before but usually there has been some stability as a safety. Bruce was that for me. I was hoping that the new man in my life was that as well. I guess it is foolish to assign that role to a person I hardly knew. Now I have that loss to deal with as well. Where is my "home"? For me home was not just a place, it was a person who provided that base. Everything is changing, my road ahead is dark and I am just trying to move cautiously and not get sidetracked.